Whether you have a food, alcohol, lust, or drug problem, you can relate to this. This is embarrassing to admit, but I have to be honest about the struggle. You don’t get to be over 300lbs without having a real problem. Real problems take time to correct. It requires perseverance, patience, pain, and prayer! As I share my journey, I don’t want to be one of those people that you read about on a magazine cover that have lost 150-175lbs and when you ask them how they did it, the answer is “I had a turning point and I’ve been healthy ever since”. That’s bull! When there are so many people struggling with obesity and they look to these magazine articles for insight and some kind of lifeline to help them, it can be misleading. Anyone wanting to lose over 100lbs or anyone who has lost a significant amount of weight knows exactly what I’m talking about. You’re in the line at the grocery store with your cart full of junk food that you plan to give up next week, and an amazing “Half Their Size” cover story catches your eye. So you pick it up with plans to read it later hoping something in that story speaks to you. I know for me, I’m hoping to find one person that has a “fat story” that resembles mine. Maybe this might be my defining moment. It never is. Do you know why? Because while these are great, inspirational stories, they barely scratch the surface of what it really takes to conquer the obesity monster or any monster for that matter. I’m not saying they’re lying. I’m saying some critical stuff is being left out. Believe me the obesity monster puts up one heck of a fight whenever challenged. I know this from my own experience and truth.
So what will I say to people when they say “How did you do it”? I won’t say I had a defining moment, because there were many. I won’t say I made one decision and just did it, because I know I had to make that same decision over and over again to keep going. I won’t say that I did it in 18 months, because in reality it took me nearly a lifetime to get it right.
What I will say is I went through cycles of the new healthy me to the old me, and back again. I will say that my first 50lb lost could’ve gone a lot faster but I gained and lost some of the same pounds. I will say that I would go weeks eating healthy but then one holiday or celebration would temporarily set me back to my old self. Then I’d say, but over time the stretches of healthy eating got longer and the cycles of old me got shorter…..as I never gave up. I’d also say that I didn’t let the cycles completely take me off the path. You see, the cycles are like detours are winding roads. I’m still going in the right direction it’s just taking me a little longer to get there. I guess you could say it’s the “scenic route”. And each time I’m on a straight away of healthy eating, I’m getting closer to my destination. What I am trying to say is the path to change of whatever your struggle is never cut and dry. The journey is a combination of ups and downs, twists and turns, straights and detours, successes and failures, joy and sadness, determination and weakness, hope and despair. And then finally success and freedom. It’s all part of it…..just keep it moving.